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The fear of not knowing
The fear of not knowing.
How do we know if we have this fear? It can be measured in many ways.
- How many new things have you learned today?
- How many refinements have you made today?
- How much time did you spend thinking about the way you do things vs. doing them?
We can be stuck in entire "life-ways" or life-styles, or basic assumptions of what is true or false for years on end without even realizing it. Think about it right now, your entire life is based on what you learned. But, simple test: do you know everything? Of course not, so there is much to learn, so there is much to change. Then, why are we so slow at changing?
The fear of not knowing.
We're afraid to know the truth, because its so finite and precise. Its ruthless, its a sharp edge. Life, or "the way", is changing constantly. Or its the same for annoying periods of time, because we're the same and refuse to be different.
But then we go through periods of saying to ourselves, "oh yes change is constant, I really believe that". Excuse me? "I" believe that? Now you're just a big I again. If you're I, you're not constantly changing, because you have just become solid.
Not saying we should walk through walls or levitate or anything, but to realize how afraid we are of revealing the truth about ourselves is a major step in a good direction. We have all these minefields in our personalities. Someone walks on a certain topic, BOOM. What's that? The past. Oh, I thought that was over? Guess not. Things certainly endure, if there's one thing to notice about things. If we let them.
The fear of not knowing is major. We don't attempt to learn new things because we are afraid we know nothing about them. Seriously stupid, seriously true. Its actually more ingrained in us than we admit, too. Its in our cells, all the way down, all the way up. Muscle tension = big sign. Well, there's only so many ways to say this, but the practice (i.e. the practice of Tai Chi or Yoga) can help this quite a bit. But then we practice without practicing for a long time, just repeating patterns and showing how smart we are. That's a problem too.
We don't know. We should know that by now. And if we're tired of not knowing, then we're just going to get a big present from Mr. and Mrs. Universe very soon to help us give up again. If you don't step up, then you're going to get a couple of presents, and then a warehouse of presents. That's the name of the game - and that's why we practice. To clear confusion.
Can we just stop being afraid of not knowing?